Paintings Coming to an End and the Internal Struggle that Follows | Painting Detail | POOP!
Apr 21, 2019
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Paintings coming to an end, and the internal struggle that follows
By Thomas Matthew Pierson
As paintings near their determined finish line I am filled with all the FEELS!!!! Part sadness, Part excitement, and Part Fear are some of the emotions I get after I finished a piece. I feel like I have accomplished something, and for that I am quite proud. Excitement for the prospects of a new piece to begin and the possibilities that that entails. I also feel a bit of fear and apprehension. Fear of the unknown and a little bit a of doubt.
This fear can often lead to me procrastinating or avoiding starting a new painting. I am fearful that I am going to make mistakes. The problem is that I won’t know what those mistakes are until I do them. I fear the future and probability; it is times like these that I just focus on working. I try not to worry about what may happen and just do the best I can do at that time. I hate thinking about hypotheticals, as a creative we can get in this positive feedback loop of thinking that we get stuck into over analyzing.
The fact that I face these fears is a strength, I could sit in my doubt and not act. But I make the act of doing my therapy. I am always a little uneasy when beginning a new work because I never know what lay ahead of me, but I can rest assured that the process of doing will level everything out in the long run.